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Drowning,

blatantdesire — 2009-03-15T07:31:00Z

I feel like I'm slowly dropping off.
Into the unknown. Into a place that only I know.
A place within my own, the only sign of home.
Every breath hurts more then the last.
Too young to be this numb, too strong to simply let go.
But being like this is what stings the most.

Untitled.

blatantdesire — 2008-12-20T18:56:00Z

Closed in this room, your phantom figured has blocked all escapes.
No way out, the claustrophobia is moments from unbearable.
No other can leave me feeling trapped the way you do.
Not a spoken word can change your mind, so my thoughts descend.
Escape can only go so high off the ground.
You hold me here, you hold me tight.
You hold me here, whispering good night.
Protective armor is a necessity when you are near.
This hard exterior is nothing but lies.
My soul is far too frail to be close to such a bull,
when my heart is merely laced with glass.
Your intended purpose has been met,
let me be the first to give my bruised and swollen congratulations.
Your unbreakable grasp is doing just that...it breaks me as well.

Doctor, tell me, how do you cure emptiness?

blatantdesire — 2008-11-15T11:05:00Z

The faint sound of bare feet on tiled floor,
perfectly in tune with the metronome in my chest.
You can skip all you want, but it just stays the same.
For things once true are never more,
acceptance, I'm afraid, is best.
And as for those regrets? They're futile, my love.
Here one moment, and slipping away every one after.
You can't change your fate, the way you can your hair.
No matter how much color you put into the universe,
so much less is returned.
"Unfair is all you are!" She cries into the abyss.
Tragic that no one is listening anymore.
Eventually, we all become like a child's toys.
Once cherished, now nothing more.